the main difference is, this time it was deliberate. Kind of. more like an experiment where i wasn't sure what the out come would be, but I got THERE after all.
Conclusion: It's me. not them. I make them go crazy.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not all egotistical or anything. and i can justify it out that in truth it really is all his own fault. Ask me a question, and you will probably find I will answer it. And i do warn people who are only starting to get to know me, that if you don't want an answer, you don't ask the question.
now for those who have managed to get past all the mumbo jumbo of the above, it breaks down like this: I asked a friend to pass on my email to one of their friends. I get initial email to start the 'getting to know you' phase - having only met them twice, and last time it was established we were both single on the prowl.
After a few emails - some with some more personal details elaborated, it is clarified that he is no longer single, which is cool, I need more friends in wellington (this is bringing my friend level up to about 4).
More questioning is exchanged as the week progresses including a quantity of pervy 'what have you tried' type stuff. Then moved onto the 'what do you think about when...' and 'do you ever have to take a break in a secluded room due to these emails?' type stuff. Basically wanting to know if I used his image/ideas/whatever as 'motivation'.
Now, this isn't information I like to just give out - after all, it would feel like he was watching me, while I was self-indulging, which wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing - if he was actually there. Also, I don't like to give people too much of an ego rush - after all it's MY imagination at work, I don't know him that well to predict what he would ACTUALLY do, next thing he'd want is a rating!!
The other detail I should add, is that these emails are being sent from his work!! mine are from home (due to sick child). oh and I always answer as honestly as possible. But i'm not completely innocent here, there is considerable flirting happening.
Then time rolls around, so that he is off home, he sends me his cell number and offers to send me a pix of him in a secluded room. I nearly fell out of my deck chair with laughter, as the multiple scenarios of what he could look like course through my brain, but there was no way I could say - hell yes, send it baby! I sent him my number. At this point I know I have under $5 left on my phone, so there was no way I was going to start the texting.
But he did. I let him know up front that I had little money left and can't top up till Thursday.
The texts really didn't get back to platonic, until i ran out of money. Then he called, just to check that was why i hadn't responded. and he called twice this morning, wanting to know what i wanted and what i got up to after the texting.
I know I can't have him, he can't come over here, and that's ok. I'm not in love, infatuated or anything. He's a nice guy that is funny, and smart, and he's in a relationship, but it's not my responsibility to make sure he follows the rules - it's his.
Sure, if he were single it would be a different story, and even if his relationship were to end, I'd make him wait at least a week or two.
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