Gone with the wind

it never works with the person of earlier in the week. only each time we do hang out and get together, the time ends up shorter and shorter. Next time (assuming there will be one) we'll probably barely say "hello".

still there is a million reasons why I haven't had a text back - namely:

• busy with family (he has a whole lot in town for a wedding)
• Job interview in Auckland today
• 11yo son
• Father dies 3 years ago today
• general work commitments.

of course I really can't get involved anyway - but I'd like to have had the opportunity to tell him he needed to get approval from my friends if he wanted to!

I really don't want to buy cats.

mission accomplished

I did it. not that i really set out to, but official drought time was 4 months, 19 days.
It rained.

I doubt it will turn into anything else - as we have had a couple of encounters in the past, which have resulted in him disappearing on me. I don't know that I'm the type of girl he would like to introduce to his friends and family either, but I have no expectations, and currently I have no demands. a good place to be really.

I'm going to take this opportunity as one to just be me, not try to be something I might think he wants, go with the gut, roll with the blankets and see how art can just be.

BTW: this was my most successful experience of internet dating - and I won him on an auction about 4/5 years ago!

I'm sure there was a plot around here somewhere!!

I've lost it!

Now that i am moved, and have a little time to unfocus, I realise I really need to get laid.
The most action I've had recently with another person has been one boob brush (allegedly unintentional) leg pats and yesterday I got a arm rub. these all count as they were from male friends that I have not previously slept with.
On the plus side (however marginal) I had another JT dream, where i convinced him we must shag, as I had already dreamt it. Seriously, if he walked through the door right now, I would drag his arse into the back room and shag him stupid! I just hope his bodyguard isn't fast & that he carries condoms.

I get the internet back tonight - I wonder if watching porn will help or agrivate my current horniness - only one way to find out i guess!