so it's been a while and felt like longer.
so far, this year has felt like a thick fog, that I've been snuggled in to. part of this due to nothing exciting happening, and partly due to the amount of books I have been devouring and dvd's. escaping into fantasy is my way of ignoring my own life, while at the same time exploring other people view points of life.
Somedays are like being on a rocking chair, basking in the past and it's adventures, waiting for that person to give me an almighty shove and propel me full-force into my future.
Monday, 21 January 2008
Sunday, 13 January 2008
If i call it a Sunday thing, I'll stop doing it.
slowly i have been crawling back to a land of healthy. while doing so i safely secured the loss of at least 1kg. some one mentioned the term Bronchitis who knows.
I am being requested to write more porn. I'm thinking about it, but really would prefer to do this in collaboration.
socially i am at a stand still, with nothing coming up and nothing in the current.
Financially i feel like I'm on the edge of an abyss, kind of maintaining, but not really and i can see some potentially horrendous expenses coming up with no foreseeable way to save for them. all i can think is 'fuck'. oh well, something will turn up or I'll learn some real poverty lessons.
I am less than happy with how much my daughters father has shown over the last 12 months, admittedly some of this is due to us moving to Wellington, but never the less, you would think that he would show some initiative of contacting her himself.
I am being requested to write more porn. I'm thinking about it, but really would prefer to do this in collaboration.
socially i am at a stand still, with nothing coming up and nothing in the current.
Financially i feel like I'm on the edge of an abyss, kind of maintaining, but not really and i can see some potentially horrendous expenses coming up with no foreseeable way to save for them. all i can think is 'fuck'. oh well, something will turn up or I'll learn some real poverty lessons.
I am less than happy with how much my daughters father has shown over the last 12 months, admittedly some of this is due to us moving to Wellington, but never the less, you would think that he would show some initiative of contacting her himself.
Sunday, 6 January 2008
the after math
woooo hooo i had one friend and his girlfriend turn up. yep that was it.
It was good however, nice to meet her, and we played singstar, overall a pleasant drunken evening with good company, finishing around 2:30am.
But I really didn't need to put all that effort into it - oh well, you live you learn, you party elsewhere!
It was good however, nice to meet her, and we played singstar, overall a pleasant drunken evening with good company, finishing around 2:30am.
But I really didn't need to put all that effort into it - oh well, you live you learn, you party elsewhere!
Saturday, 5 January 2008
Tumbleweed that is my life
Here I am, waiting for people - anyone really to arrive at my 'party'.
I already know - due to the meter reading that I am the only who checks this blog, and so it should not surprise me too much that no one may actually show tonight. Sure I don't know that many people locally, however I was hoping at least a couple might show their face. preferably before I am so drunk that i go to bed!
Just not sure how i managed to get to this point though, where I know so few people and can count on even less.
I think i planned an ok venue, music is happening, place is decorated, I have alcohol and ice in the freezer, even put on some snacks. I must be less of a people-person than i thought. Can't have a party without them - bastards!
I already know - due to the meter reading that I am the only who checks this blog, and so it should not surprise me too much that no one may actually show tonight. Sure I don't know that many people locally, however I was hoping at least a couple might show their face. preferably before I am so drunk that i go to bed!
Just not sure how i managed to get to this point though, where I know so few people and can count on even less.
I think i planned an ok venue, music is happening, place is decorated, I have alcohol and ice in the freezer, even put on some snacks. I must be less of a people-person than i thought. Can't have a party without them - bastards!
Friday, 4 January 2008
Party planning
Party plans are coming together. the most important being in place already - that is the margarita freezing in the freezer, it should be a delicious slushy already, and perfect for tomorrow.
It seems though i will be needing to tend to the jungle that is being formed around the house though - i loathe this, but perhaps if i reward my self with a margarita after all will be good.
I may need to find a way to inflate my mini pool for the Melrose themed back area, as my lungs wont be able to cope - perhaps the first guest, or even the bike pump i have somewhere in the garage.
I should also work on my own costume soon too. - no sweat though, i'll pull something together, even if it is last minute!
It seems though i will be needing to tend to the jungle that is being formed around the house though - i loathe this, but perhaps if i reward my self with a margarita after all will be good.
I may need to find a way to inflate my mini pool for the Melrose themed back area, as my lungs wont be able to cope - perhaps the first guest, or even the bike pump i have somewhere in the garage.
I should also work on my own costume soon too. - no sweat though, i'll pull something together, even if it is last minute!
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
Happy new Year
I hope the time thing is set right on this thing!
I started off 2008 in the best way I could - Blackcurrant pie with cream and Coffee - and some meds to help me breathe.
my mind is starting to clear, and i am thinking of planning my party - not that there will be many people there, but it will be fun to decorate anyway. perhaps even having several little stereos throughout the house with their themes on them. Custom cd's etc. hmmmmm it may just work!!
I started off 2008 in the best way I could - Blackcurrant pie with cream and Coffee - and some meds to help me breathe.
my mind is starting to clear, and i am thinking of planning my party - not that there will be many people there, but it will be fun to decorate anyway. perhaps even having several little stereos throughout the house with their themes on them. Custom cd's etc. hmmmmm it may just work!!
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