Flashbacks!!

the last 30 hours have been the best in ages!

I finally felt a bit more 'normal' - although still coughing.
Started the day off with starting a book, and reading for a while, then Samantha & I went to the video store in preparation for my evening with PG. I chose The Bourne Ultimatum, and Arthur & the Invisibles, since I got those, Sam was allowed a free weekly PS2 game - good ol' Dora!

then after some relaxing at home again (and tidying of the flat) we went and picked up PG from his sisters. We had a good catch up over the night - still crazy to think that it's been 12 years! We ate some chinese, drank some vino, watched the Bourne Ultimatum and chatted even more. Samantha went to bed easily - although i warned her I may have to wake her to take PG home again. I didn't.

It was perfect (as a one night) - here are the rules to follow:
1. no compliments - let your hands and lips do that - no words.
2. no cuddles
3. make sure the person knows you are leaving the country.

If you follow rule number 2 properly, then in the morning when/if you are ready to go again, you can go back to rule number 1 - and your intentions will be clear, and you will by gesture have complimented your partner on the previous nights activities.

I have to admit to having broken rule number 1, but it was more a 'thanks' than a compliment, and I think it is fairly important to let them know what they did so well 12 years ago, that has gone on to give you many, many, many nights of pleasure. The changes that had occurred over the years, were for the most part improvements - even physically.

oh and we got up early to take him back to his sisters, and then watched Arthur, before heading over to my Aunts and taking my Mum out to lunch. We also watched Breakfast at Tiffany's and His Girl Friday.

in summary: I got laid, and it was the best way to end a year that has been filled with people from my past.

It's a wonderful life

I know I'm the master of my own destiny, but visualisation has NEVER worked for me - other than to ensure things will not turn out that way.

there are things that I would like to see happen and indeed be part of, however I have visualised these and it will never happen - probably just as well.
I did however text a friend a couple of weeks ago, and if he had responded for the assent then I'm sure it would have been a night of fun. Now however, I'm not sure it is such a good idea. But i would still like to catch up with him and see how things have gone lately, i think he has additional ideas. and it is all my fault. So now i avoid - I could stop being so cowardly.

i love Christmas - well, once all the decorations are done and presents bought, and I can sit back and relax an wait for the big day to arrive.
I'm especially excited this year, as I have got my daughter things I am positive she will love, and it's great that my mum is coming to me this year - even better she is staying at my aunts, so I can easily escape if need arises.
Also I get to see Pete again, I find it really weird that this is a guy I spent 12 months with, and then nothing for 12 years, so many changes over that time, it's almost like meeting someone new, yet I have already been introduced.
then i am going to visit my friends in Taupo for New year - then back to have my own party.

I can't WAIT!!!!!

ratings

It came to my attention this weekend that Pete is a rating - PG, and I also know an AO - I work with him. I was delighted to learn that he too realised his initials are a rating.

It has also come to my attention many errors grammatical and spelling that are made in my blag. this simply because I don't proof read. I rely on the squiggle that is spell check.

I have been planning a party - a little late in the day for a New Year party, so now i am going to move it to the 5th, and go to Taupo for New Years! Oh the revelry!

The Return!

I almost had a secret admirer this morning, then it turned out it was a John.
At 6:30am - ungodly hour - I got a text "I love you" from an unknown number. So an hour later (i had to wait for my thumbs to wake up) I replied "Thanks, that's sweet - who is this?" 2 hours later i get "It John, love you". aaaarrrrgggg run screaming.

I have received some great advice: ignore him. I LOVE it!! just the sort of advice I would give a friend in my situation. So I have also reached another conclusion: a John Fast. no communication to any John, unless email or MSN. no texts, phone calls, or booty calls.

Of all the ex's I would even consider getting back together with, i think I choose PG (said as Peege) - good job, intelligent guy, was fairly decent, and I remember the sex being pretty good too. of course the fact that it's been 12 years since I saw him last possibly helps. - Look people, as Ex who had the decency to leave me in peace!!

Costume designer anyone?

So tonight, was the party, it was quite good, but one of the two people I would have known at the party pulled out with sickness - I swear the man spends half his life sick! So this meant that for the first time in I don't know how long I was at a party where there were no guys I had shagged before! technically.

I have a confession though: I had 'phone sex' the other night, and I think it counts, as the next day i wasn't so.... wound up. I think that is the best term. It was like when you shag someone and they no longer interest you anymore. I know, I've been told I can be soooo like a guy, - obviously not physically!
Speaking of that: tonight i remembered my 6th form formal lesson - never do strapless. To wear the corset - which gives me a fantastic trim waist - I also had to wear a bra underneath and sewed it on, even then it was trying to slip down all night! Hard to breathe sitting down, and my shoes were making my feet sore. trials of a woman. I think i looked pretty good though, and there will be photos - at some stage. I was the only headmistress, although there was a headmaster. Most people did dress up which was great.
I think i was also giving people the wrong impression as several guys asked me if I was into dominance- which I'm not, and said as much - obviously though i can look the part.

I once wanted to be a famous extra

Today I was messaged by one of my ex-boyfriends, whom i was with for a year during my initial uni years, through FB. I thought it was pretty cool. I contacted him a few months ago, but changed computers and really i'm fairly slack about communicating, unless it is somewhere easy like FB. I'm even fairly slack with texting!
It was great to see a photo of him, I think all that has changed is his t-shirt! seriously I have the same photo of him in one of my albums, just he's wearing a different shirt. This could possibly be because he was also wearing a hat - he may have gone bald.

I'm trying to be calm about tonight - but really I'm buzzing!!! Party!!! where i get to dress up! I LOVE dressing up!!! I know i wont look as hot as i want, but it wouldn't matter what size or shape i was, i'd never be completely happy anyway, I'm a real make do with what i've got kinda girl. - probably sums up my whole life really! - ok, not in the mood to do a deep and meaningful now! I'm going to have to pick up some V to get me through & I hope my nails dont break before tonight - they have been so good all week!!



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Mirror, Mirror, on the wall

why don't you reflect the image in my head?

Today, I bought some xmas pressies for my daughter -yah! Xmas has started.

We are going to have someone come into work, and give us tips on how to be more efficient etc. I'm a bit worried that she's going to find out i don't really know what i'm doing and that everything i have been doing has been crap. I know that this won't really happen, i'm just being paranoid, but I can't control paranoia! In the meantime we have a competition to bring some more sales! I like that.

I have been enjoying Black Books - english comedy series - funny!!

From the depths of dust rises:

This is a poem, that has been bugging me this week, and after much searching, i finally found it!

If 6 Were 9

If 6 were 9

You’d still be mine.

We would have been 19.

Would that have made

Everything alright?

I can’t get you out of my head.

I told you once

I’d love you forever.

I found out it’s true.

If 6 were 9

Everything would be fine.

I must have written this when I was 19, but some days it still holds true.