It's a Sunday Contemplation thing

over the last week, I've been busy, most of that was work and the remainder was mothering. As tomorrow approaches I am preparing for a very busy December - at least until the 19th anyway!!
I have so much on that i have created my own little month planner, and keep putting things in it so I don't forget anything!

I have been thinking of putting in my LJ a "Links not to click while eating lunch" and while I've been thinking about it for a while, I'm too damn lazy to actually do anything about it!

Good news today: TVNZ are bringing back the "Goodnight Kiwi" hurrah! of course in reality it means little to me as I don't get TV 1 or 2 on which it will be on. Yesterday I bought the first season of "The Greatest American Hero" and educated my daughter on the origins of that classic song she learnt at school :D I also acquired the 1st season of Magnum PI, so now i have seasons 1,2, 5 & 6.

Strangely i have started playing CSI on PS2 again - must be a summer thing for me?!

Today i HAVE to mow the lawns, i only did half of them last week - feeble attempt really.

I see a tornado on the horizon

When i get bored, I get into mischief - nothing too bad really, but recently the only mischief making I have been able to get into has been web related. I created a person - not hard to do in anonymous would that is the www.
I'm finding it interesting to see how it is going, and how much i want to develop it further.

then...

My Ex-husband rang me last night. He is back in the country and is seriously considering moving to Wellington when our daughter comes back from her Xmas holidays with his mother. This will be good in that he may actually have and take some custody time - leaving me with more free time to have a social life, and interesting in that I agreed to let him stay with us until he finds a place to live & a job.

Now i have further motivation to stop being so fat!! I'm eating salad this week for lunches!!

I need more info

ok, so I wasn't happy with how i set up the other blog. Material wasn't as forthcoming either, but you get that. I now have a bit more of an idea, but i think i will wait a bit longer. I have saved my first entry - not that it was that funny, but it was a start.

I have been experimenting with the art of internet deception - i think i am remaining within legal guidelines currently, although i dont really know the rules.

I have been approached by what i thought was a nice enough guy, then i found out - early on that he has a partner and little baby. OK, we can be chat friends. last night however, he indicated that he wants "one last fling". well, sorry, not for me. It's not an open relationship and I will not be partaking in such activities. I dont understand how this can possibly help him in his current relationship?! Ok, so it all happened quickly for him, but in my little idealistic romantic mind, if he actually loved his partner, he wouldn't be wanting anything else. Perhaps he is only there for the baby, and has convinced himself he wants to be with the partner as well. Not my problem.

On a happy note however, I found or confirmed that Chipmunks lets me drop my girl off for 2 hours for only $15!! so I could go and visit a friend ;) not that i needed the whole 2 hours, but it was nice to be able to relax after. and great to know for if & when i need to have some shopping time to myself. The longest I could leave her is 3hours - this shall help with Xmas shopping me thinks.

a gem has been laid

hopefully it will turn into something fruitful!

for a few days I have realised that i could turn my stand-up comedy character in to a blog. and so I have :) first post is done - Wanda's Weekly. I am going to try to update it weekly, and basically see if I can develop the character into more than just 3 stories.

In terms of trying to get my social life going... I have done a bit more work on a potential dating website, updated my profile and tried to improve it, chatted to one guy, who i thought was ok... then found out he is in a relationship and has a small baby. hmmmm i am going to have to re-check his profile to see if either he was deceptive, or I can't read. Often it is me.

Hate? Love?

The local news site has been bleating on (by this I mean there was an article I didn't read and a poll I didn't answer) about Hate and how Love and Hate are so closely related. I think that the article probably said something about the brain and blah blah the areas controlling are close blah blah. A whole lot of stuff I don't really need to know and aren't surprised about. Is it wrong to be so cavalier about someone's life research work?

anyway, I find the emotion Hate to be one just as confusing as Love. Sure there are people I dislike, most of them are because they are stupid, and a few of them are because they have actually done something to me or my friends that has immensely pissed me off, and as a Scorpio girl, i really do hold a grudge. but I don't think i actually hate anyone. I dont believe anyone is actually worthy of me investing this amount of emotion into.

What is Hate anyway? is it when someone makes you so angry you want them dead? so badly it causes your stomach to turn and feel queasy? You must feel retched just thinking about the target of your hatred. and what are you going to do about it all? Ruin your own life because of this emotion?

not surprisingly much of the above can be said about Love. real love anyway, that Great Love.
Interesting that there are possibly healthier, lesser and more accurate emotions of Hate - anger, disappointment, embarrassment, frustration, confusion, dislike etc which can move us away from the Hate feeling.
Whereas Love is used for many relationships and often used instead of things like: companionship, lust, like, friendship, connection, family, sex, which all try to move us closer to Love or we try to move ourselves closer to Love without actually achieving it.

where am i going with all of this? I don't know. no where i guess. just saying.