firstly, as i thought... benefits cancelled. which is fine we are still good friends.
Things with my OB are... hmmm not sure I can condense this one. Its long distance, there is chatting, skyping, texting. It's not easy, but its not really hard work.
I am loving that I have someone to go home to, who is there & 'listen' to me & push me a bit, but not get in my way. An adult to discuss things with who is on my side.
We get dodgy together & push each others buttons in a fun way, but he is much more like who I really am, without having to push myself too far out of my comfort zone. If we were ice-cream, we'd be Hokey pokey flavour... basically vanilla with a few hidden gems.
In 38 days I fly down to see him. Stay with him for 4 days. I have told my mother, that I will be in her small town & not staying with her, I'll catch up for a few hours.
I'm having trouble waiting, but there is nothing else I can do. I can't move it earlier due to work commitments & his own family & work commitments. we are busy people, which fortunately makes the waiting easier. In the meantime we are probably over planning things etc, but it's fun.
Yesterday he sent me a job advert... freaked me out a little, but I'm glad he did. It will warm me up to the idea & I did a budget to see what I could afford to live on. Although he hasn't offered or mentioned it, the idea of living with someone also freaks me - all I can think is "A Man is not a Financial Plan", of course, neither is lotto, but that doesn't stop me buying tickets!
Actually it is only the financial side of things that really freaks me out when thinking about living with him - I know I like my own space, but he is away a fair bit, so I would get that.
I used to be so impulsive with decisions... now I have to let things ponder a lot more.
