I have a 'date' tonight. I have dressed for it from the get go... flirty dress, stockings, boots (cardy for warmth). With someone who I didn't think i was going to be allowed access to again... but of course time is the best healer. Probably after tonight he will say once again that we shouldn't do this again... blah blah.. and perhaps it is not in the best interest of his mental state... but it feels so good! I would also like to point out, that I NEVER initiate these events.
This person is very good at bringing out the nasty slutty side of me... which i find particularly exciting... only I do wonder if I get in a relationship will THAT person, do guys want a slutty dirty (monogomous) wife? I dont have to be that way, I lived for 4 years with a perfectly nice guy, where our sex life was ok, but he wasn't into oral... which was ok, after all I never want to force someone to do something they don't feel comfortable with.
I hope i don't fall for this guy... that could get messy, I just want him to be happy.
Monday, 29 September 2008
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
It's only taken 32years, 10months and 8days
But i may have decided what I want to do when I grow up!!
A motivational Speaker. Firstly I have to be the very best in my field, and after todays effort, this is something i am sure I can achieve.
The hardest thing is going to be writing a book, but maybe I could get a ghost writer?!
I think i would start with Goal setting seminars which i could promote to schools. I would have to include a workbook - I could do that!
Then or at the same time, I could do seminars just for the other franchises in my work group - these could be on sales, and more importantly Telephone sales.
In other news: I have never wanted something more than I wanted a $10 mystery bag of crap today. Their website kept crashing, and it took me 4 hours of refreshing to actually get my order through! ok so actually the bag of crap cost me $16 including postage, but i am looking forward to what might be inside!! If it is actual crap I don't want, I'm sure it will suit someone for Xmas!
and there is no social news.
A motivational Speaker. Firstly I have to be the very best in my field, and after todays effort, this is something i am sure I can achieve.
The hardest thing is going to be writing a book, but maybe I could get a ghost writer?!
I think i would start with Goal setting seminars which i could promote to schools. I would have to include a workbook - I could do that!
Then or at the same time, I could do seminars just for the other franchises in my work group - these could be on sales, and more importantly Telephone sales.
In other news: I have never wanted something more than I wanted a $10 mystery bag of crap today. Their website kept crashing, and it took me 4 hours of refreshing to actually get my order through! ok so actually the bag of crap cost me $16 including postage, but i am looking forward to what might be inside!! If it is actual crap I don't want, I'm sure it will suit someone for Xmas!
and there is no social news.
Thursday, 18 September 2008
On a tight wire
this week, has been a little bit about balance. In particular my bad eating habits. Yesterday I ate a whole lot of carrot sticks, and today I had BK :D then tonight (only because i am going to defrost my freezer) I ate about 1L of vanilla icecream in the form of coke spiders. My only defence is that i had diet coke!
This week I got paid my commission from last month. It's great! In sales you see, when you go for a job, you get a lot of BS about "opportunity to earn". eg salary X, OTE Y. normally Y is basically unachievable unless you are a freaking legend - and I am pretty good at what I do. So to actually be earning what I was told was my Y is pretty freaking great, especially as the sales that have come aren't freak one off sales.
Still I have too much debt, and have to continue to save and try to be more financial. So that is where most of my commision is going. I have finally achieved goal 1. - Saving $a, now I have to focus on goal 2. - elimate debt Q. I will have this done by Xmas, then i need to save some more, then eliminate V... then I have to work on eliminating the big ones! And in the meanwhile do Xmas! I am trying to keep a close watch on what i am doing with my funds, as while I am not completely hopeless financially, I could be a lot better!
It would be nice to win lotto though, I could do a lot with 16mil! shame i dont buy tickets!
This week I got paid my commission from last month. It's great! In sales you see, when you go for a job, you get a lot of BS about "opportunity to earn". eg salary X, OTE Y. normally Y is basically unachievable unless you are a freaking legend - and I am pretty good at what I do. So to actually be earning what I was told was my Y is pretty freaking great, especially as the sales that have come aren't freak one off sales.
Still I have too much debt, and have to continue to save and try to be more financial. So that is where most of my commision is going. I have finally achieved goal 1. - Saving $a, now I have to focus on goal 2. - elimate debt Q. I will have this done by Xmas, then i need to save some more, then eliminate V... then I have to work on eliminating the big ones! And in the meanwhile do Xmas! I am trying to keep a close watch on what i am doing with my funds, as while I am not completely hopeless financially, I could be a lot better!
It would be nice to win lotto though, I could do a lot with 16mil! shame i dont buy tickets!
Monday, 8 September 2008
tentatively I post here... ahhh screw it! if people read, they read.
I had a good weekend. Had some people over and there was drinking and conversation, some dancing, some singing and some guitar hero. I was impressed that most people participated in most happenings :)
While having a girly talk with a lovely girl - who i only got to meet due to her BF being my friend, I was asked about the concept of relationship with J. And a side from all the crap that he is going through, and while we are good friends and get on remarkably well... there is no spark. no Je ne sais quais. I think of him fondly, we banter, we joke, he is very companionable and thats it.
The Doctor on the other hand, is all "Je ne sais quais". so much i get completely confused, and nervous and weird. Not that i have grand dillusions of romantic feelings... it's more i dont know how/what i feel or even if I should. so I block. J keeps telling me it would be a good idea, but i think he is just trying to pawn me off!
I had a good weekend. Had some people over and there was drinking and conversation, some dancing, some singing and some guitar hero. I was impressed that most people participated in most happenings :)
While having a girly talk with a lovely girl - who i only got to meet due to her BF being my friend, I was asked about the concept of relationship with J. And a side from all the crap that he is going through, and while we are good friends and get on remarkably well... there is no spark. no Je ne sais quais. I think of him fondly, we banter, we joke, he is very companionable and thats it.
The Doctor on the other hand, is all "Je ne sais quais". so much i get completely confused, and nervous and weird. Not that i have grand dillusions of romantic feelings... it's more i dont know how/what i feel or even if I should. so I block. J keeps telling me it would be a good idea, but i think he is just trying to pawn me off!
Wednesday, 3 September 2008
Spring has sprung! hurrah!
socially - not much happening. I am having a party this weekend, although at this stage there may only be 3 people there and I am sure when in the Hall of Resisdence 7 was construed a party.
Financially I can see the a way through my woods. although i do keep getting very tempted by exciting gadgets including a automatic opening 32L rubbish bin! I could really use one of these, although the $80 odd dollars would be betting in my savings account. I am now earning a nice chunk of commission which is helping me towards that on-going goal of being debt free.
I did a list of the things i would do if I won Lotto, and as I don't actually buy tickets anymore I thought rather than have them as dreams and be consistently down as i can never reach them, start with one and work my way towards it - so that is what I intend to do. There are only about 10 things there, all of them involve money, but some of them also involve time - these ones will be much harder to achieve! But if i want them hard enough, i'll get there, eventually.
Financially I can see the a way through my woods. although i do keep getting very tempted by exciting gadgets including a automatic opening 32L rubbish bin! I could really use one of these, although the $80 odd dollars would be betting in my savings account. I am now earning a nice chunk of commission which is helping me towards that on-going goal of being debt free.
I did a list of the things i would do if I won Lotto, and as I don't actually buy tickets anymore I thought rather than have them as dreams and be consistently down as i can never reach them, start with one and work my way towards it - so that is what I intend to do. There are only about 10 things there, all of them involve money, but some of them also involve time - these ones will be much harder to achieve! But if i want them hard enough, i'll get there, eventually.
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