firstly the weightloss thing is no longer a priority.
Twenty Ten. Sounds awesome! to me it sounds like a time that could never happen, and yet here I am on it's door step.
A week or so ago I demanded from my Scientist boyfriend that he find a way to make me a hover craft. We should have these already. Apparently the ones currently available use up too much energy. as he is in the Energy field of science I suggested he work on that!!
I'm having a small gathering of folk tonight, & think i will make some strawberry daiquiris, one of my friends has already booked the couch & Dr MC arrives back from chch at 8pm... so he might be here by 10pm :)
These holidays i have systematically gone around my house and cleaned. Not your usual cleaning either, i moved the oven & the fridge & have taken several bags of clothes to the clothing bins, filled 3 rubbish bags & my recycling container. Still have the spare room to attend to & I need to clean the fish tank! Now it looks like the lawns will need done again too! It has been a busy week.
I'm looking forward to next week too :)
Take cares!
Thursday, 31 December 2009
Sunday, 8 November 2009
I'm not anal retentive
I just operate better with instructions - ie planning.
So this weight loss thing is going really well, last week lost another 1.4kg, & I certainly don't expect that kind of carry on every week... this coming week my goal is around the 500g mark.
But in preparation I have bought a skipping rope & some nicer trackies to attempt any physical activity that requires clothes.
I plan - roughly what main meals I want to eat during the week & then create my shopping list, the less often I have to shop the better for both my finances & my will power not to get something naughty. I am having fun cooking though and making many delicious meals.
I haven't settled on what form of exercise I will do yet, basically i loathe exercise unless it is sex or dancing. So I will rejoin the RHBs soon, again. and I want to have things which are easy to pop into my day - skipping is hard work, but 10mins I can fit in. I don't want to join the gym & commit for 2 years (or even 6 months) when I don't have the time or inclination to continue it on.
Last night I went to a lovely party & saw loads of people from Christchurch, who while I recognised aren't normally the people I seek out to talk to. I took my boys there (O & J), one as my 'date' the other was on the actual guest list. A lot of the women - around 90% of them are VERY round people, so I felt positively thin - or at least curvaceous in the right places & my boys always know how to make me feel very sexy without me taking it as creepy - I love them!
As DR MC had a stag do, I was not going to text him, but he did contact me through the night & he was somewhat intoxicated - I like that I get drunken texts ... from him anyway :)
Next weekend I have my birthday celebrations & after my boys bemoaning their lack of blackcurrant pie... I will make one for them as well as the WW cheesecake I was planning on. Oh happy times I am having! :)
So this weight loss thing is going really well, last week lost another 1.4kg, & I certainly don't expect that kind of carry on every week... this coming week my goal is around the 500g mark.
But in preparation I have bought a skipping rope & some nicer trackies to attempt any physical activity that requires clothes.
I plan - roughly what main meals I want to eat during the week & then create my shopping list, the less often I have to shop the better for both my finances & my will power not to get something naughty. I am having fun cooking though and making many delicious meals.
I haven't settled on what form of exercise I will do yet, basically i loathe exercise unless it is sex or dancing. So I will rejoin the RHBs soon, again. and I want to have things which are easy to pop into my day - skipping is hard work, but 10mins I can fit in. I don't want to join the gym & commit for 2 years (or even 6 months) when I don't have the time or inclination to continue it on.
Last night I went to a lovely party & saw loads of people from Christchurch, who while I recognised aren't normally the people I seek out to talk to. I took my boys there (O & J), one as my 'date' the other was on the actual guest list. A lot of the women - around 90% of them are VERY round people, so I felt positively thin - or at least curvaceous in the right places & my boys always know how to make me feel very sexy without me taking it as creepy - I love them!
As DR MC had a stag do, I was not going to text him, but he did contact me through the night & he was somewhat intoxicated - I like that I get drunken texts ... from him anyway :)
Next weekend I have my birthday celebrations & after my boys bemoaning their lack of blackcurrant pie... I will make one for them as well as the WW cheesecake I was planning on. Oh happy times I am having! :)
Saturday, 31 October 2009
Too long
The worst thing about not posting for so long, is struggling to remember which username & password combo fits here... finally got it right though :)
'relationship' is still all good. Work has improved dramatically & I am having a lot of fun pissing off the competition mwhahahaha!
But this is about the relationship side of my life. He's pretty great actually. a gradual progression of emotions happening.
That L word has been thrown around in my head, & there are definitely some warm fuzzies happening, but it's not that kind of all consuming, passionate, young, all or nothing kind of intense LOVE. It's based on more adult themes of friendship, respect & appreciation. There goes my youth!
The strangest thing to me is the happiness I feel. I was happy being single, I still maintain I don't NEED someone extra in my life, but having someone to spend social times & cuddles is great & i feel even happier.
Although he doesn't really compliment me (verbally) he never puts me down in any manner either, this leaves me to get my own shit together & continue to have the freedom to direct my life where I want it to go.
In slightly related news, I went back to weight watchers last week. About 4-5years ago i went, when i was my fattest (98kg) and lost about 5kg, before life took over & threw me other curb balls I had to deal with, then I continued to loose a few more kg over time very gradually yah! Last month or two I have just been lazy & as I threw away most of my WW material when I moved I decided to go back and get back on track.
It really suits me and how my life is at the moment, I'm enjoying having decent and varied food in the fridge & cooking. Last week I lost 1.1kg :) with minimal exercise.
My plan is to stick with the food side of things & then when i plateau - which will probably be in week 4/5, I'll up the exercise. I figure I could get a skipping rope & jump rope while things cook, or go for a walk around the block (my block is pretty long). Also if I rejoin RHBs that is intense exercise, although only once a week - better than none though :)
I do however need to measure how tall I actually am - to get my optimum weight range correct.
Tonight I am off to a Halloween party! I'm driving as drinking costs a lot of points!!
'relationship' is still all good. Work has improved dramatically & I am having a lot of fun pissing off the competition mwhahahaha!
But this is about the relationship side of my life. He's pretty great actually. a gradual progression of emotions happening.
That L word has been thrown around in my head, & there are definitely some warm fuzzies happening, but it's not that kind of all consuming, passionate, young, all or nothing kind of intense LOVE. It's based on more adult themes of friendship, respect & appreciation. There goes my youth!
The strangest thing to me is the happiness I feel. I was happy being single, I still maintain I don't NEED someone extra in my life, but having someone to spend social times & cuddles is great & i feel even happier.
Although he doesn't really compliment me (verbally) he never puts me down in any manner either, this leaves me to get my own shit together & continue to have the freedom to direct my life where I want it to go.
In slightly related news, I went back to weight watchers last week. About 4-5years ago i went, when i was my fattest (98kg) and lost about 5kg, before life took over & threw me other curb balls I had to deal with, then I continued to loose a few more kg over time very gradually yah! Last month or two I have just been lazy & as I threw away most of my WW material when I moved I decided to go back and get back on track.
It really suits me and how my life is at the moment, I'm enjoying having decent and varied food in the fridge & cooking. Last week I lost 1.1kg :) with minimal exercise.
My plan is to stick with the food side of things & then when i plateau - which will probably be in week 4/5, I'll up the exercise. I figure I could get a skipping rope & jump rope while things cook, or go for a walk around the block (my block is pretty long). Also if I rejoin RHBs that is intense exercise, although only once a week - better than none though :)
I do however need to measure how tall I actually am - to get my optimum weight range correct.
Tonight I am off to a Halloween party! I'm driving as drinking costs a lot of points!!
Thursday, 20 August 2009
It's been a while, better make it a good one!
Sorry folks, I've been busy, but i have been thinking about you, researching "facts" & gaining experiences.
Firstly my recommendations:
Men - go and learn how to give head massages - but only if you want your intended to melt at the knees (even when horizontal)
Everyone: Sexual health check up. Get tested, in NZ it is FREE including the doctors visit & the results are back within 3/4 days. It's great to be able to draw a line in the sand and confidently state - STD free - that's me! For girls the doc takes a swab then a blood test at the blood suckers place; the swab is less uncomfortable than a smear - which we should all be doing regularly as well! And to top it off the doctor gave me enough free condoms to satisfy Don Juan!
Women: please stop starfishing! I thought this practise had ended but was disappointed to learn of a 21year old girl practising this. tisk tisk. please remember to ALWAYS give it your all, as if it was your last! or just say no. Think of what this is doing to your reputation.
Things are still going along nicely with my "Boyf" we look to be going to the movies this weekend - a near miracle as he normally goes to all the movies I want to see with his boyfriends ;)
Firstly my recommendations:
Men - go and learn how to give head massages - but only if you want your intended to melt at the knees (even when horizontal)
Everyone: Sexual health check up. Get tested, in NZ it is FREE including the doctors visit & the results are back within 3/4 days. It's great to be able to draw a line in the sand and confidently state - STD free - that's me! For girls the doc takes a swab then a blood test at the blood suckers place; the swab is less uncomfortable than a smear - which we should all be doing regularly as well! And to top it off the doctor gave me enough free condoms to satisfy Don Juan!
Women: please stop starfishing! I thought this practise had ended but was disappointed to learn of a 21year old girl practising this. tisk tisk. please remember to ALWAYS give it your all, as if it was your last! or just say no. Think of what this is doing to your reputation.
Things are still going along nicely with my "Boyf" we look to be going to the movies this weekend - a near miracle as he normally goes to all the movies I want to see with his boyfriends ;)
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
A little Breakfast please
People who know me in RL, know that this century my relationships have been shockers! To sum up: I married a boy who will never grow up - and whose one redeeming feature is that he does take on more fathering responsibilities than other people give him credit for.
Then I took in a homeless boy, who once again will never grow up, at a time when I didn't want, need or was even ready for any form of relationship. Basically I have spent at least half of this century in a pretty messed up emotional state.
On the other hand, I took the last 3 years to myself, and mostly made myself unavailable to guys for a permanent basis, I think I now have my head straight, and am a hell of a lot happier in my own skin. So the time is right, for me.
Being in a healthier place, and starting what seems like a healthy relationship, I am amazed at how screwed up my head was and how much better I am now.
Currently I am happy, just seeing how things go, not rushing anything. Before I used to rush in, try to let him know as much about me as possible so then he could find something that he didn't like & leave. I'm just realising how much of a complex I used to have about men leaving me I had. I've known about this for many years & how it came about, but I now think that with my recent friendships with guys this may have helped me get over it - enough not to rush things anyway.
We're not trying to invade each others company all the time. During the week, there will be occasional text, and we see each other on Saturday nights. I would like at some point for him to meet Samantha, and it would be nice to have him over occasionally during the week - however my motives behind these thoughts are primarily heat based. Yes, the bed is warmer with 2 people in it. I have met 2 of his closest friends - we all met at the same party, and he has met several groups of my friends - although this is not by design, more events came up recently spread over several friend groups.
One of the more PC things I am enjoying about "seeing" Mac, is that he can take my slightly kwirky ideas and really run with them, encouraging me to take it to the next level as well. Delving in to the practical side, while remaining supportive & creative. I used to really enjoy these types of conversations with some friends in Chch, and have missed them terribly. These conversations are ones that just come up naturally through things around... we don't need to go looking for them :)
There are some things I'd like to mention to him, but nothing of any great importance, and nothing that can't wait for it's own time to come up.
Then I took in a homeless boy, who once again will never grow up, at a time when I didn't want, need or was even ready for any form of relationship. Basically I have spent at least half of this century in a pretty messed up emotional state.
On the other hand, I took the last 3 years to myself, and mostly made myself unavailable to guys for a permanent basis, I think I now have my head straight, and am a hell of a lot happier in my own skin. So the time is right, for me.
Being in a healthier place, and starting what seems like a healthy relationship, I am amazed at how screwed up my head was and how much better I am now.
Currently I am happy, just seeing how things go, not rushing anything. Before I used to rush in, try to let him know as much about me as possible so then he could find something that he didn't like & leave. I'm just realising how much of a complex I used to have about men leaving me I had. I've known about this for many years & how it came about, but I now think that with my recent friendships with guys this may have helped me get over it - enough not to rush things anyway.
We're not trying to invade each others company all the time. During the week, there will be occasional text, and we see each other on Saturday nights. I would like at some point for him to meet Samantha, and it would be nice to have him over occasionally during the week - however my motives behind these thoughts are primarily heat based. Yes, the bed is warmer with 2 people in it. I have met 2 of his closest friends - we all met at the same party, and he has met several groups of my friends - although this is not by design, more events came up recently spread over several friend groups.
One of the more PC things I am enjoying about "seeing" Mac, is that he can take my slightly kwirky ideas and really run with them, encouraging me to take it to the next level as well. Delving in to the practical side, while remaining supportive & creative. I used to really enjoy these types of conversations with some friends in Chch, and have missed them terribly. These conversations are ones that just come up naturally through things around... we don't need to go looking for them :)
There are some things I'd like to mention to him, but nothing of any great importance, and nothing that can't wait for it's own time to come up.
Thursday, 9 July 2009
MacGyver may have been located
I brought the gum... but haven't yet used it.
Here I can be a little silly, a little gooey - so be prepared to see a side of me that you wont get o very often, in the hopes that if I spill my guts here, I can remain in some form of control in RL.
What I like about this Mac (& I can use "Mac" cause he is a "Mc" and that's pretty close):
Here I can be a little silly, a little gooey - so be prepared to see a side of me that you wont get o very often, in the hopes that if I spill my guts here, I can remain in some form of control in RL.
What I like about this Mac (& I can use "Mac" cause he is a "Mc" and that's pretty close):
- he has a circular saw and many other tools
- He has chest hair - a little like a YOUNG Magnum PI (sigh)
- He has an intelligent and inventive mind (I'm a knowledge whore)
- He can cook
- He's good in bed
- He doesn't cuddle and make me all sweaty
- He gives me space
- He gives good massages - including my head
- He dresses well
- He has a good job and ambitions for the future
- He wants to buy a house - this year
- He doesn't smoke
- He has friends who seem normal
All this goodness - part of me wants to end it all now, before I get too emotionally invested as it could never work out, i'm crap at relationships - fortunately this is a very small part that can be quashed reasonably easily.
i think the worst thing about him so far, is his name - the same as my father's. made telling Mum really awkward, nice that she said it wasn't his fault though :)
of course a large part of me is clinging to the fact we are "just seeing each other" at the moment - no commitment, although every saturday for the past several weeks we have made plans together & we will be getting together this Sat too. There is a party coming up in August which we have both been invited to, it may be our first event we attend as a "couple" uh oh... so scary!!
It's not really the commitment thing I fear, it's the fear of fucking it up, being labeled and having to live up to that label - what does being a couple mean? what are the rules or expectations??
freak out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 21 June 2009
A Date
a real live date! and I went on one!! dinner.
I was really nice too. the meal itself was great, and the company was good too. yes with the guy from the previous post :)
This guy is really nice, and intelligent & we chatted with ease, then we went back to his place & watched a couple of movies. It was nice to cuddle on the couch, and chat a little. half way through the night he brought out his duvet which was not only a really nice and warm blanket, but I totally love snuggling under a blanket in front of the telly.
He has tools too. Like a circular saw!!
With the second movie over I was invited to stay, and so I accepted. With everything going so well, I was a little worried that he might not be up to my recent standards in the boudoir... however my fears were completely unjustified. He even did something I normally do to guys... the soft touch over the skin .... hard to explain, but now I know why my ex used to like it so much. He also gives good back massages!
I don't think I'm getting carried away... yet, and I'm trying to take things as they come, but I really hope things continue.
I was really nice too. the meal itself was great, and the company was good too. yes with the guy from the previous post :)
This guy is really nice, and intelligent & we chatted with ease, then we went back to his place & watched a couple of movies. It was nice to cuddle on the couch, and chat a little. half way through the night he brought out his duvet which was not only a really nice and warm blanket, but I totally love snuggling under a blanket in front of the telly.
He has tools too. Like a circular saw!!
With the second movie over I was invited to stay, and so I accepted. With everything going so well, I was a little worried that he might not be up to my recent standards in the boudoir... however my fears were completely unjustified. He even did something I normally do to guys... the soft touch over the skin .... hard to explain, but now I know why my ex used to like it so much. He also gives good back massages!
I don't think I'm getting carried away... yet, and I'm trying to take things as they come, but I really hope things continue.
Sunday, 14 June 2009
There's someone else
So sorry for not updating sooner, but it's true, I have another blog and have been involved with posting there every day this June.
But now for an update that I'm not putting over there... yet.
I am not a skank. Looks like you can grow out of being a tart, and I have. yah me!! of course there was probably a lot to do with the guy who came over last night too. Things could have gone differently, infact I'm fairly sure that if he had tried some moves & earlier in the evening, it all could have turned out different for him. (so maybe, its not me, it's him)
Basically me and this guy have been trying to catch up for a while.. without getting horribly wasted at the same time... except when you are single, and have been for a while, you learn to fill up your days and evenings with all sorts of carry on, and it's been a bit tricky. Even last night, I didn't get home from running around town til 7pm, and was fairly beat then... he had to go to a pot luck dinner with some friends, he text me at 9:30pm though and came over (he was lucky, i was just contemplating bed or a bath).
We chatted and vaguely watched some bad tv... til about 3am!! around this time he makes his move to kiss me. He was pretty good though, all evening he made sure he was sitting quite close - which can be tricky, cause i have a decent size couch. But even with kissing, he didn't try any gropage, or suggest anything 'extra'. And yet if I was heading over to a guys place at 10pm, i'd be thinking "booty-call" but then i most guys are easy!
So, obviously a really nice guy, he's not too nice though. Lives by himself, seems to be fairly financially independent, intelligent, has a vehicle and a job (engineer) and a bit of drive with running a small business (enough to have an accountant) and he is studying part time as well. I'm not blown away by him, but do want to get to know him further and enjoyed spending time with him. I'm not writing him off... let's just see where this goes, if indeed anywhere.
But now for an update that I'm not putting over there... yet.
I am not a skank. Looks like you can grow out of being a tart, and I have. yah me!! of course there was probably a lot to do with the guy who came over last night too. Things could have gone differently, infact I'm fairly sure that if he had tried some moves & earlier in the evening, it all could have turned out different for him. (so maybe, its not me, it's him)
Basically me and this guy have been trying to catch up for a while.. without getting horribly wasted at the same time... except when you are single, and have been for a while, you learn to fill up your days and evenings with all sorts of carry on, and it's been a bit tricky. Even last night, I didn't get home from running around town til 7pm, and was fairly beat then... he had to go to a pot luck dinner with some friends, he text me at 9:30pm though and came over (he was lucky, i was just contemplating bed or a bath).
We chatted and vaguely watched some bad tv... til about 3am!! around this time he makes his move to kiss me. He was pretty good though, all evening he made sure he was sitting quite close - which can be tricky, cause i have a decent size couch. But even with kissing, he didn't try any gropage, or suggest anything 'extra'. And yet if I was heading over to a guys place at 10pm, i'd be thinking "booty-call" but then i most guys are easy!
So, obviously a really nice guy, he's not too nice though. Lives by himself, seems to be fairly financially independent, intelligent, has a vehicle and a job (engineer) and a bit of drive with running a small business (enough to have an accountant) and he is studying part time as well. I'm not blown away by him, but do want to get to know him further and enjoyed spending time with him. I'm not writing him off... let's just see where this goes, if indeed anywhere.
Thursday, 28 May 2009
A? B? C?
don't panic... there is no BoyC :)
Things have gone down an acceptive avenue with one Boy, which is great, everything out in the open nice and clear... easy!
So left with one. there has been some texting, he's away this weekend - actually leaving the island, so a perfectly good excuse, and I'm sure we will go out at some point. Apparently he had been "thinking about me" - thinking isn't doing!!
I may be leaving my job soon. as much as I like it here, it's not working out, I'm not selling as much as I should be, or getting as many new customers on board as we need... and despite putting in effort (in my opinion) nothing is happening. Need to talk with the boss first... but i think i am on my way out. I have no idea what I will do... I'd like to stay local... might end up doing a few different part time jobs... who knows? I just hope I can continue to pay my bills!!
You know things are bad when the boss complains about having to buy too much milk... and I only have one cup of coffee a day!
Things have gone down an acceptive avenue with one Boy, which is great, everything out in the open nice and clear... easy!
So left with one. there has been some texting, he's away this weekend - actually leaving the island, so a perfectly good excuse, and I'm sure we will go out at some point. Apparently he had been "thinking about me" - thinking isn't doing!!
I may be leaving my job soon. as much as I like it here, it's not working out, I'm not selling as much as I should be, or getting as many new customers on board as we need... and despite putting in effort (in my opinion) nothing is happening. Need to talk with the boss first... but i think i am on my way out. I have no idea what I will do... I'd like to stay local... might end up doing a few different part time jobs... who knows? I just hope I can continue to pay my bills!!
You know things are bad when the boss complains about having to buy too much milk... and I only have one cup of coffee a day!
Wednesday, 20 May 2009
He's just not that into you
I have to admit, sometimes I forget what this blog is for, it's general theme and/or purpose. It was created to have somewhere to bitch & moan about my lack of social life and other such more private angsts.
So
Had a party on friday, and now i feel a bit more comfortable with the term "party" as I had 10 people show up, and only 2 of these were not drinking. Sing star was played through out the evening and things finally wrapped up at about 3am.
Now, I had no expectations of any "hook ups" of any degree, and was mostly expecting to drink, dance, sing and eat nibbles. And i did partake in all of these activities.
things did get a little "high-school" with one of my male friends telling me that "BoyA" was interested in me... although i thought he was interested in one of the other girls, but apparently he had talked to her, then talked to me, and he no longer was interested in her. hmmm ok - lucky i was under the influence really. - this was all relayed through my friend - who was also drinking.
A bit later I'm dancing with BoyA and he snuggles up, and starts kissing me... ok... but he wouldn't let me kiss him... I'm thinking 'bit of a controller?' after a while, his friends start to leave and he gets chased out the door - I think this is fairly funny!!
The next point, I have a chat to my 2 single guy friends and one of them shows interest in one of my new girl friends, so I do the friend thing, and go and ask her what she thinks. Find out, no, she has a lot going on in her life right now, and prefers to be single. Fair enough.
So I convey that to friend who I shall now call "BoyB" who is fine, and I tell him how awesome I think he is, cause he is - I really value him as my friend & he tells me I could do better than BoyA - and somehow we end up kissing! Which was very nice, although I was feeling like a bit of a skank, and he's not really "allowed" to do anything with me (ex-girlfriend thing). So this part was particularly surprising, and also pretty good.
So now? Well, BoyA has texted me, vaguely suggesting to have a 'sober' meeting.. although nothing is set yet. BoyB I haven't heard from.
I'm not going to force anything with either, if something happens, it does, and if it doesn't so be it. Also, due to one of these boys possibly reads this blog, i am not going to say any more.
So
Had a party on friday, and now i feel a bit more comfortable with the term "party" as I had 10 people show up, and only 2 of these were not drinking. Sing star was played through out the evening and things finally wrapped up at about 3am.
Now, I had no expectations of any "hook ups" of any degree, and was mostly expecting to drink, dance, sing and eat nibbles. And i did partake in all of these activities.
things did get a little "high-school" with one of my male friends telling me that "BoyA" was interested in me... although i thought he was interested in one of the other girls, but apparently he had talked to her, then talked to me, and he no longer was interested in her. hmmm ok - lucky i was under the influence really. - this was all relayed through my friend - who was also drinking.
A bit later I'm dancing with BoyA and he snuggles up, and starts kissing me... ok... but he wouldn't let me kiss him... I'm thinking 'bit of a controller?' after a while, his friends start to leave and he gets chased out the door - I think this is fairly funny!!
The next point, I have a chat to my 2 single guy friends and one of them shows interest in one of my new girl friends, so I do the friend thing, and go and ask her what she thinks. Find out, no, she has a lot going on in her life right now, and prefers to be single. Fair enough.
So I convey that to friend who I shall now call "BoyB" who is fine, and I tell him how awesome I think he is, cause he is - I really value him as my friend & he tells me I could do better than BoyA - and somehow we end up kissing! Which was very nice, although I was feeling like a bit of a skank, and he's not really "allowed" to do anything with me (ex-girlfriend thing). So this part was particularly surprising, and also pretty good.
So now? Well, BoyA has texted me, vaguely suggesting to have a 'sober' meeting.. although nothing is set yet. BoyB I haven't heard from.
I'm not going to force anything with either, if something happens, it does, and if it doesn't so be it. Also, due to one of these boys possibly reads this blog, i am not going to say any more.
Sunday, 3 May 2009
All the Single people, (all the single people)
WOW!!
i went to a "Singles Cocktail Party" last night. It was pretty cool.
Firstly, i got invited through a facebook club i belong to, and so i thought initially that there were going to be a lot more girls than guys, and i was very unsure of the age bracket that was going to be represented and thought I might only know one or two people, and one of those was a 'waitress' and the other the host. So to stead myself I brought "back up" (not to-go-home-with-if-it-doesn't-work-out-back-up) friend, escape plan, and veto-er.
I invited one of my single friends, who had to decline due to prior commitments, then I invited John, although please don't tell John, cause he thought I invited him over the first person... fragile ego, please don't burst his bubble, he doesn't have many left!!
There was drinks being made, nibbles being passed around. Most of the girls I met and talked with were there for pretty much the same reason as myself... happy with our singledom, but happy to meet new people. I have a hard time relating to women my age who's main focus in life is to find a man and live "happily ever after". It was good to get to know some of these women better after meeting them a couple of times through the 'Crafty-Foxes'.
The guys were all pretty normal too, chatted to a few of them, one of them went to uni at the same time I did, with some people who I was friends with way back then.. that was funny really - small world and all that.
There was one odd guy, but it wasn't til about 2am that i was talking with him and he declared that "All women are evil or stupid" I was sober, and starting to tire... now I wish i had replied "that's an excellent thing to say to 'win friends and influence people'" I couldn't be bothered arguing with him either, i just let him have his wee opinion and moved to the dance floor.
Earlier than this tho, there was some note passing, which was a bit of a dubious thing to be going on, then the boys got together and wrote some notes, and then the girls... it was all a bit high school and no one was telling anyone who wrote what. There was one 'date' that transpired... one guy gave a note with his number and an invite for lunch, so that was cool.
I now have more people to add to my FB and invite to my party - huzzah.
i went to a "Singles Cocktail Party" last night. It was pretty cool.
Firstly, i got invited through a facebook club i belong to, and so i thought initially that there were going to be a lot more girls than guys, and i was very unsure of the age bracket that was going to be represented and thought I might only know one or two people, and one of those was a 'waitress' and the other the host. So to stead myself I brought "back up" (not to-go-home-with-if-it-doesn't-work-out-back-up) friend, escape plan, and veto-er.
I invited one of my single friends, who had to decline due to prior commitments, then I invited John, although please don't tell John, cause he thought I invited him over the first person... fragile ego, please don't burst his bubble, he doesn't have many left!!
There was drinks being made, nibbles being passed around. Most of the girls I met and talked with were there for pretty much the same reason as myself... happy with our singledom, but happy to meet new people. I have a hard time relating to women my age who's main focus in life is to find a man and live "happily ever after". It was good to get to know some of these women better after meeting them a couple of times through the 'Crafty-Foxes'.
The guys were all pretty normal too, chatted to a few of them, one of them went to uni at the same time I did, with some people who I was friends with way back then.. that was funny really - small world and all that.
There was one odd guy, but it wasn't til about 2am that i was talking with him and he declared that "All women are evil or stupid" I was sober, and starting to tire... now I wish i had replied "that's an excellent thing to say to 'win friends and influence people'" I couldn't be bothered arguing with him either, i just let him have his wee opinion and moved to the dance floor.
Earlier than this tho, there was some note passing, which was a bit of a dubious thing to be going on, then the boys got together and wrote some notes, and then the girls... it was all a bit high school and no one was telling anyone who wrote what. There was one 'date' that transpired... one guy gave a note with his number and an invite for lunch, so that was cool.
I now have more people to add to my FB and invite to my party - huzzah.
Monday, 20 April 2009
Manic typing
I like these: 'I've got a few minutes til quiting time, so i'll skive off here' posts :)
Stand up went well, i have awesome wellingtonian friends who came by and supported me, 2 different kinds of people, who ended up sitting near each other and didn't even know they were all there for me. i had the 'OMG he's drunk and we better heckle him before he heckles the comedians' people. Awesome, awesome night! I didn't do so well that i had to go on to the finals, but i did well enough that people laughed at the right places! whew!
Ex has all moved out now - hurrah!!!! I do need to plan a party, but i have no money and am not really sure when I'll be getting any extra funds... maybe if i just down scale it - yeah, people just want to get drunk anyway.
Nothing too exciting has been happening, been catching up with some friends - yah, getting some craft projects done :) pretty content with most of my life really - except the financial side of things, but hey, I'll get by - there's lots of people worse off than me! It really is amazing what one can do with only a little money.
Stand up went well, i have awesome wellingtonian friends who came by and supported me, 2 different kinds of people, who ended up sitting near each other and didn't even know they were all there for me. i had the 'OMG he's drunk and we better heckle him before he heckles the comedians' people. Awesome, awesome night! I didn't do so well that i had to go on to the finals, but i did well enough that people laughed at the right places! whew!
Ex has all moved out now - hurrah!!!! I do need to plan a party, but i have no money and am not really sure when I'll be getting any extra funds... maybe if i just down scale it - yeah, people just want to get drunk anyway.
Nothing too exciting has been happening, been catching up with some friends - yah, getting some craft projects done :) pretty content with most of my life really - except the financial side of things, but hey, I'll get by - there's lots of people worse off than me! It really is amazing what one can do with only a little money.
Thursday, 2 April 2009
16 minutes to post
then i go home.
at the moment, i am excited and silently panicing.
Excited: my ex-hubby FINALLY got a home last night!! woo hooo he is moving out this weekend! yah! oh the super yah!!
Now i get to plan the all important "Mexican Meat" party!!
The Panic: Tomorrow night I am doing standup comedy, infront of a group of people I've been spending the last 9 years boasting about the fact that I used to do stand-up. Worse - I'm going to be judged!!!!!! apparently scored, the top 2 will go onto finals!! OMFG!!! I'm not ready for this kind of pressure... I really need to pull finger and actually make sure I can memorise this TONIGHT!!! it's short... might be too short... I'm allowed 7mins, I think i have 3, maybe 4.
Tonight I'm going to have to venture under my bed, I'm sure I left something funny there? I hope anyway.
Oh Crap! I need to do my last month's report for work... due today... 9mins left
at the moment, i am excited and silently panicing.
Excited: my ex-hubby FINALLY got a home last night!! woo hooo he is moving out this weekend! yah! oh the super yah!!
Now i get to plan the all important "Mexican Meat" party!!
The Panic: Tomorrow night I am doing standup comedy, infront of a group of people I've been spending the last 9 years boasting about the fact that I used to do stand-up. Worse - I'm going to be judged!!!!!! apparently scored, the top 2 will go onto finals!! OMFG!!! I'm not ready for this kind of pressure... I really need to pull finger and actually make sure I can memorise this TONIGHT!!! it's short... might be too short... I'm allowed 7mins, I think i have 3, maybe 4.
Tonight I'm going to have to venture under my bed, I'm sure I left something funny there? I hope anyway.
Oh Crap! I need to do my last month's report for work... due today... 9mins left
Sunday, 22 March 2009
complaints department please
oh yeah, that's me.
Last weekend my toaster stopped working, for no apparent reason (although secretly i blame the ex, he was trying to use it when it stopped). So I ordered a new shiny one from work, waited all week and then it arrived Friday.
Took it home, let Sam have toast for tea... and while it works, it doesn't stay down by itself. grrr.
I also have a cold - blah!
On the good news side: I am feeling a bit better about work - hurrah! I have finished the cross stitching side for the "Happy Box".
This week, i will get a spiral notebook and start on the t-shirt deconstruction project :)
Oh and my ex started his new job this week, seems to be going well. He is also looking at flats now, so hopefully will be moving out really soon! fingers crossed!! I'm hoping to have a party in April. i might call it the "F@ off, I'm eating Meat" party.
Monday, 16 March 2009
sit down with a nice cup of tea
and don't tell anyone...
I'm beginning to dislike some of my job. mainly the work. and I am starting to feel angry towards people. there aren't many people actually there, so it wouldn't be hard to pin point them.
Customers annoy me the least, after all being one in 500 odd it's easier to dissipate the annoyance factors, and they tend to take their annoyingness away with them. I keep hoping that things will get better, but then something else will happen to make me all angry again.
Todays thing was a letter of reference from one of my customers. You might think that this would be a good thing, only it basically said that he only deals with our company because of me.
So i can't use it at all (i would use it to promote our little company to get new customers) - not too bad a thing really, no big deal... except it came to our PO Box, which the Boss clears, and he opened it first, and read it (fair enough really) except then he passed it to my manager, and showed it to his son (purchasing guy) all BEFORE it came to me - to whom it was addressed. This irritates me, that something that effectively was mine, was 'consumed' by almost the entire staff before I get to see it! And because the letter was so undiplomatically written, i feel like I've done something wrong, and now everyone had animosity towards the writer.
I hope these work frustrations go away soon, cause my job is better than many, many others out there, and I enjoy the perks of being able to buy stuff cheap. Hopefully this post will help.
Sunday, 8 March 2009
It's been too long!
sorry my lovelies, I know I've been slack about updating here. Bit busy is always the excuse, but ya know!
So, was in the cuba st carnival, which was awesome. Now I think i have a minor 'girl-crush' which is kinda cool, although like all crushes I have no idea what to do about it, so I don't do anything!
Ex-husband is still here, but it has been nice having a baby sitter, yesterday I left the house about 10:30am, and didn't get home til after 11pm. nice not to have to worry about how she is getting on etc. Also nice not to have to think about what to cook everynight, although I am starting to tire of all the vege meals, such that last night while out I choose the 300gram Big Beef Burger with Bacon! ooohhh yeah! that hit the spot!
I am finding it interesting that a lot of my friends wonder what I ever saw in him and think that he is a real jerk in general. Now, i have to admit that if it weren't for having a kid together, we would have nothing to do with each other.
Yesterday was a great day, although very tiring! First I did some work for Bob, then onto Pool playing for a friends birthday celebrations. I play about twice a year, once on his birthday and once on mine, although him and one of his mates have invited me to play billiards with them on Sundays at a reasonably local RSA. Then we went out for tea, and then went along to another Birthday celebration for 7 lovely ladies. I had been up til midnight finishing their pressies - cross stitched earings. Genius idea I thought, and I got to see a pair on and thought they turned out good too! Have to admit, i was so tired I said a couple of stupid things, nothing too embarrasing, but you know. Then when the party turned from being a private event to a public one, I scarpered. Just couldn't handle the impending throng of people in such an enclosed space, bit rude not to say goodbye, but i think everyone was having a grand enough time.
So then I played chauffeur.
disappointing really - havn't done anything remotely dodgy for weeks! sorry, dont mean to let the side down... well, not on purpose anyway.
So, was in the cuba st carnival, which was awesome. Now I think i have a minor 'girl-crush' which is kinda cool, although like all crushes I have no idea what to do about it, so I don't do anything!
Ex-husband is still here, but it has been nice having a baby sitter, yesterday I left the house about 10:30am, and didn't get home til after 11pm. nice not to have to worry about how she is getting on etc. Also nice not to have to think about what to cook everynight, although I am starting to tire of all the vege meals, such that last night while out I choose the 300gram Big Beef Burger with Bacon! ooohhh yeah! that hit the spot!
I am finding it interesting that a lot of my friends wonder what I ever saw in him and think that he is a real jerk in general. Now, i have to admit that if it weren't for having a kid together, we would have nothing to do with each other.
Yesterday was a great day, although very tiring! First I did some work for Bob, then onto Pool playing for a friends birthday celebrations. I play about twice a year, once on his birthday and once on mine, although him and one of his mates have invited me to play billiards with them on Sundays at a reasonably local RSA. Then we went out for tea, and then went along to another Birthday celebration for 7 lovely ladies. I had been up til midnight finishing their pressies - cross stitched earings. Genius idea I thought, and I got to see a pair on and thought they turned out good too! Have to admit, i was so tired I said a couple of stupid things, nothing too embarrasing, but you know. Then when the party turned from being a private event to a public one, I scarpered. Just couldn't handle the impending throng of people in such an enclosed space, bit rude not to say goodbye, but i think everyone was having a grand enough time.
So then I played chauffeur.
disappointing really - havn't done anything remotely dodgy for weeks! sorry, dont mean to let the side down... well, not on purpose anyway.
Monday, 16 February 2009
Brought to you by the word 'Ace'!
update time:
firstly ex-hubby: has a job interview today (finger's crossed), he is helping out a bit more including buying about half the groceries. I'm coping.
Janine took me out on Saturday, we had an awesome night dancing at the San Fran bar. Good DJ. bumped into a couple of people I know which was cool, didn't drink, but didn't get much sleep either so was pretty tired come Sunday!
I have joined the 'Real Hot Bitches' semi-professional dance troupe, and will be performing in the Cuba St Carnival this coming Saturday! huzzah!! come and watch or join in! I will try to also post this in my LJ.
The Crafty Foxes thing seems to be working out, even if I just stick with doing the projects which should get me along once every couple of months, then I am still doing something crafty, and mildly associating with new people.
Over the next few months I am going to be extremely poor, and while it would be nice to blame my ex for this, it's not actually his fault. It's mine, I'm so over-financed it's stupid, and commissions probably wont start happening for a few months. I'm begining to consider the option of extending my personal loan, back to where I was a year ago - sigh!
Glad I got my AA membership sorted though - it's going to be half of what I thought due to the crazy amount of insurance on my car.
C'est tout
firstly ex-hubby: has a job interview today (finger's crossed), he is helping out a bit more including buying about half the groceries. I'm coping.
Janine took me out on Saturday, we had an awesome night dancing at the San Fran bar. Good DJ. bumped into a couple of people I know which was cool, didn't drink, but didn't get much sleep either so was pretty tired come Sunday!
I have joined the 'Real Hot Bitches' semi-professional dance troupe, and will be performing in the Cuba St Carnival this coming Saturday! huzzah!! come and watch or join in! I will try to also post this in my LJ.
The Crafty Foxes thing seems to be working out, even if I just stick with doing the projects which should get me along once every couple of months, then I am still doing something crafty, and mildly associating with new people.
Over the next few months I am going to be extremely poor, and while it would be nice to blame my ex for this, it's not actually his fault. It's mine, I'm so over-financed it's stupid, and commissions probably wont start happening for a few months. I'm begining to consider the option of extending my personal loan, back to where I was a year ago - sigh!
Glad I got my AA membership sorted though - it's going to be half of what I thought due to the crazy amount of insurance on my car.
C'est tout
Sunday, 1 February 2009
I take it all back
I can open my own jars, i will cope with looking after car stuff, I'll hire a gardener if need be.
I NEVER want to live with another man.
mostly I can be fairly tolerable of things and I am not the perfect house keeper, however even I have my limits. Pee on the toilet floor is that limit. If you are a guest in my home, and you miss, then for god's sake at least use some toilet paper to mop up!
On the "silver-lining" side of things, at least I am continuing to find good reasons why we are no longer together. Now if he could just run away and find a job, please.... NOW!!!!
I NEVER want to live with another man.
mostly I can be fairly tolerable of things and I am not the perfect house keeper, however even I have my limits. Pee on the toilet floor is that limit. If you are a guest in my home, and you miss, then for god's sake at least use some toilet paper to mop up!
On the "silver-lining" side of things, at least I am continuing to find good reasons why we are no longer together. Now if he could just run away and find a job, please.... NOW!!!!
Saturday, 31 January 2009
Did i Ever claim to have rationality?
maybe i did, I often say I am a fairly logical person, organised yet also flighty. Rational though? I try to rationalise things - this way if i understand them, my theory is I can change them (if I wanted to)
yes, at times my ex just PISSES me off. I dont know how, or why and i dont actually care to think too hard about it.
This last week has been mostly ok. It now, however is becoming obvious he was on his best behaviour, which in my view is simply how people behave when they live in a flatting situation. And actually in some areas lacking in the 'guest' behaviour.
Good points - let start with the positive.
I honestly don't think he has any idea of how much he hurt me, all the bull shit he put me through, all the bull shit lies - which it appears he still believes and hangs onto. The emotional manipulation is what hurt the most, and i was not in a place (with a new baby) to go anywhere, emotionally or physically. Even now, dealing with him I have to juggle my needs with what is best for our daughter, so although he might just look at the next few weeks, I look at how things will pan out over the next few months.
When i was with my last boyfriend, my ex told me he was a "loser" turns out he was right. Now, he asks me if I'll believe him next time. I said no. I'd listen to heaps of my other friends. he wanted to know why. I didn't have the right words but said it was something to do with him having a vested interest and me not trusting him. Not that i think he wants to get back with me, but more because of our daughter and any man that comes in to my life, is automatically in our girl's , and therefore in his. What i chose not to tell him, is that i dont think he is very smart and why would I trust a stupid person with my life?
I actually have many many reasons for not trusting his opinion of people and most of them come down to the fact that I feel like he fucked my life over once, I'm not letting him have direct control over doing it again.
He has learnt some stuff, and to a 7 year old he will seem pretty smart - he knows some facts about animals and world stuff etc - factual things, but really he's a dumb arse. Example? We talked one night about us having shared custody, (which is fine by me so long as expenses are actually shared) however, he wants to work in town, central Wellington, and therefore he wants to live near work. Seems very fair and reasonable, until you look at the cost of renting a 2 bedroom place in town. then factor in getting your kid to school - which is a 20minute drive north (on the motorway) and he has no car or licence, and if he did, renting space for your car in town will add probably another $50 a week to your rent.
And he will be looking for work in hospitality - nights. I'm not sure how much barmen earn, but I dont see shared care happening for a few years unless he wins lotto! But not my place to point any of this out to him.
Today I am going to the RHBs! ooo yeah!!!
yes, at times my ex just PISSES me off. I dont know how, or why and i dont actually care to think too hard about it.
This last week has been mostly ok. It now, however is becoming obvious he was on his best behaviour, which in my view is simply how people behave when they live in a flatting situation. And actually in some areas lacking in the 'guest' behaviour.
Good points - let start with the positive.
- He's doing the cooking
- looking after our daughter all day this week until school starts next tuesday
- Did get my washing in when it rained, and did put out washing the next day when sunny
- Food is healthy.
- He mowed half the lawn - the tough half after I did the easy half
- I am doing all the dishes
- If he puts dishes away he puts them in the wrong place
- He ruined a plastic bowl trying to cook popcorn in it??!!
- He leaves the toilet door open
- He's starting to leave the toilet seat up - never used to be an issue, but when you are a guest in a girly house, you leave things as you find them!!
- Dodgy innuendos
- Tea is cooked later than I like - I'm going to have to talk to him about this one for when school is back.
- he doesn't offer to do anything,
I honestly don't think he has any idea of how much he hurt me, all the bull shit he put me through, all the bull shit lies - which it appears he still believes and hangs onto. The emotional manipulation is what hurt the most, and i was not in a place (with a new baby) to go anywhere, emotionally or physically. Even now, dealing with him I have to juggle my needs with what is best for our daughter, so although he might just look at the next few weeks, I look at how things will pan out over the next few months.
When i was with my last boyfriend, my ex told me he was a "loser" turns out he was right. Now, he asks me if I'll believe him next time. I said no. I'd listen to heaps of my other friends. he wanted to know why. I didn't have the right words but said it was something to do with him having a vested interest and me not trusting him. Not that i think he wants to get back with me, but more because of our daughter and any man that comes in to my life, is automatically in our girl's , and therefore in his. What i chose not to tell him, is that i dont think he is very smart and why would I trust a stupid person with my life?
I actually have many many reasons for not trusting his opinion of people and most of them come down to the fact that I feel like he fucked my life over once, I'm not letting him have direct control over doing it again.
He has learnt some stuff, and to a 7 year old he will seem pretty smart - he knows some facts about animals and world stuff etc - factual things, but really he's a dumb arse. Example? We talked one night about us having shared custody, (which is fine by me so long as expenses are actually shared) however, he wants to work in town, central Wellington, and therefore he wants to live near work. Seems very fair and reasonable, until you look at the cost of renting a 2 bedroom place in town. then factor in getting your kid to school - which is a 20minute drive north (on the motorway) and he has no car or licence, and if he did, renting space for your car in town will add probably another $50 a week to your rent.
And he will be looking for work in hospitality - nights. I'm not sure how much barmen earn, but I dont see shared care happening for a few years unless he wins lotto! But not my place to point any of this out to him.
Today I am going to the RHBs! ooo yeah!!!
Tuesday, 20 January 2009
an extra mouth but not quite what I want
I am currently feeding an extra mouth, and I'm not happy about it.
I now REALLY want to have a man around so he can deal with these icky things I don't want to. - this is the reason people hook up isn't it??
There is a mouse in my house, and according to my mother, they come in pairs. ew ew ew ew ew!!
I have laid down poison, which is being munched on (mwhahahaha), however the poison apparently takes about a week to take effect. I also have 2 traps, and the mouse (oh please let there be only one) just takes the food I leave there and runs! bastard! now however, i do know that they like to eat: short sweet pastry and apple. I am now trying peanut butter, apparently they like this... but i'm worried the damn mice will just lick it off and escape my trap. On the plus side, i am feeling less icky about picking up a dead mouse to throw away.
oh and in other news, I've decided to find myself a new man. by this I mean, that while optimally I would like to have someone who actually wants my amazingness around him all the time, until then I am going to find a new casual shag. My current one isn't working out for me. I think this is because while he is fine when ever HE wants some, if it's me who wants it, it just doesn't seem to be convenient. and that sucks. so no more.
I now REALLY want to have a man around so he can deal with these icky things I don't want to. - this is the reason people hook up isn't it??
There is a mouse in my house, and according to my mother, they come in pairs. ew ew ew ew ew!!
I have laid down poison, which is being munched on (mwhahahaha), however the poison apparently takes about a week to take effect. I also have 2 traps, and the mouse (oh please let there be only one) just takes the food I leave there and runs! bastard! now however, i do know that they like to eat: short sweet pastry and apple. I am now trying peanut butter, apparently they like this... but i'm worried the damn mice will just lick it off and escape my trap. On the plus side, i am feeling less icky about picking up a dead mouse to throw away.
oh and in other news, I've decided to find myself a new man. by this I mean, that while optimally I would like to have someone who actually wants my amazingness around him all the time, until then I am going to find a new casual shag. My current one isn't working out for me. I think this is because while he is fine when ever HE wants some, if it's me who wants it, it just doesn't seem to be convenient. and that sucks. so no more.
Tuesday, 13 January 2009
The Price of an Enjoyable Shag
Firstly let me explain my title today... I have come to realise that sometimes an "enjoyable shag", does not necessarily mean a "good shag". I know several people who are great shags but given their personality, means they are not altogether an enjoyable shag. And often the "enjoyable shag" is not all about the actual art of fornication, but also other mitigating circumstances. (which i can't be bothered detailing).
Years ago, when I was a young first year university student, I had a 'friend' who lived in Brighton, and one night he decided to pop over to see me (I lived on Ilam Rd, Riccarton) about 45min drive away. He took a taxi $40 worth (in 1994) and after a couple of hours, he took a Taxi home again. that is an $80 round trip!! Don't get me wrong I'm worth it, but for a panel beater to spend that kind of dosh for one evening was kind of extravagant (IMO).
Now however, I'm looking at the price of airfares... pretty much for the same reason, and at $49 each way... it does seem like a viable option - not that i have discussed this with the person of whom I think of as "enjoyable shag" - although to book in a shag in March or April, seems a little on the nose. after all this is like saying "look, you'll still be single in a few months, so will I... how about it?" and we're both attractive people... we could meet someone... it's possible, and if tickets were bought, it would almost be definite. Investment in my future?
OK, so maybe I'm thinking it's a good idea so there is no way I could commit to anyone in the months preceding...(not that i have anyone in the horizon to commit to)... Hi my name is Karen, and I'm a commitment phobic.
Years ago, when I was a young first year university student, I had a 'friend' who lived in Brighton, and one night he decided to pop over to see me (I lived on Ilam Rd, Riccarton) about 45min drive away. He took a taxi $40 worth (in 1994) and after a couple of hours, he took a Taxi home again. that is an $80 round trip!! Don't get me wrong I'm worth it, but for a panel beater to spend that kind of dosh for one evening was kind of extravagant (IMO).
Now however, I'm looking at the price of airfares... pretty much for the same reason, and at $49 each way... it does seem like a viable option - not that i have discussed this with the person of whom I think of as "enjoyable shag" - although to book in a shag in March or April, seems a little on the nose. after all this is like saying "look, you'll still be single in a few months, so will I... how about it?" and we're both attractive people... we could meet someone... it's possible, and if tickets were bought, it would almost be definite. Investment in my future?
OK, so maybe I'm thinking it's a good idea so there is no way I could commit to anyone in the months preceding...(not that i have anyone in the horizon to commit to)... Hi my name is Karen, and I'm a commitment phobic.
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
Controlling the Chaos - CtC
CtC has come about due to factors that happened just before Christmas.
1. my ex-hubby deciding to more to Wellington
2. another ex wanting me to contact him.
Since 1, happened before 2, I was ok with this, and moderately happy to see how it will all eventuate. It will be better for our daughter, and hopefully will mean I have a little more free time to socialise. I just need to remain strong and make sure that I'm not walked over and my needs are also heard.
2. this ex, is the jailbird-ex. He is MAJOR drama, and I really don't want to get involved again. I also dont need to get involved again. After speaking with some friends i actually met through him, and they are also choosing to avoid him, I feel a lot more at peace with this decision. Luckily - or perhaps fate just loves me this year - when i put the wrong cell number on my (NYB) New Year Bloke's LJ, he may have read it - I have already deleted the message with the right number - there is another connection with my NYB. damn that circle is far too small!! Fortunately NYB really dislikes jailbird-ex.
then the Steve thing. He's mentioned here:
In my past there have been a few different reasons of why I have done stuff, sometimes an opportunity has come up, and i've thought yes, lets give that a go! and other times, I have just let stuff happen to me, because i have made no decision at all.
Making no decision is how i got involved in the jailbird-ex fiasco, so from now, I am going to choose which fiascos I take on - hence Controlling the Chaos - or perhaps a little better - Choosing the Chaos.
Most of the rest of my life I have been playing it like it is a giant list of 'Things to Do'. I like lists, checking them off etc, and while I know i could excell I really only feel a need to pass, and in my day, a pass was 50%. I think i have managed to cram a fair bit into my life so far, and while i know i have a lot of life left to fill, i finally feel like I can be a bit more selective about what I fill it with. It's like i have the quantity, now let's find the quality.
on a less serious note... a ponderance: why is it that all the lesbians I know, look nothing like the hot blonde lesbians on Redtube????
1. my ex-hubby deciding to more to Wellington
2. another ex wanting me to contact him.
Since 1, happened before 2, I was ok with this, and moderately happy to see how it will all eventuate. It will be better for our daughter, and hopefully will mean I have a little more free time to socialise. I just need to remain strong and make sure that I'm not walked over and my needs are also heard.
2. this ex, is the jailbird-ex. He is MAJOR drama, and I really don't want to get involved again. I also dont need to get involved again. After speaking with some friends i actually met through him, and they are also choosing to avoid him, I feel a lot more at peace with this decision. Luckily - or perhaps fate just loves me this year - when i put the wrong cell number on my (NYB) New Year Bloke's LJ, he may have read it - I have already deleted the message with the right number - there is another connection with my NYB. damn that circle is far too small!! Fortunately NYB really dislikes jailbird-ex.
then the Steve thing. He's mentioned here:
Multiple Minor Failures!
He's someone i met through my work life and I like chatting with him, but know he's into some more serious-than-I-would-like-to-be S&M stuff. Since it is a bit more extreme than i want, and I find it a little scary, I have said no thanks.In my past there have been a few different reasons of why I have done stuff, sometimes an opportunity has come up, and i've thought yes, lets give that a go! and other times, I have just let stuff happen to me, because i have made no decision at all.
Making no decision is how i got involved in the jailbird-ex fiasco, so from now, I am going to choose which fiascos I take on - hence Controlling the Chaos - or perhaps a little better - Choosing the Chaos.
Most of the rest of my life I have been playing it like it is a giant list of 'Things to Do'. I like lists, checking them off etc, and while I know i could excell I really only feel a need to pass, and in my day, a pass was 50%. I think i have managed to cram a fair bit into my life so far, and while i know i have a lot of life left to fill, i finally feel like I can be a bit more selective about what I fill it with. It's like i have the quantity, now let's find the quality.
on a less serious note... a ponderance: why is it that all the lesbians I know, look nothing like the hot blonde lesbians on Redtube????
New Post for the New Year
big thing this "New Year" business. I've often liked them, and have to admit to having high standards to how I bring in the latest one. I don't like being at home in bed snoozing (like last year). This time I was at a party snogging a bloke I probably wont see again for a couple of years. Much more my scene :)
Funny-ish story there too.
Couple of days before I left Welly, I left a message for the above bloke to text me, as I'd regard him a friend and wanted to know if he was attending this party or would I have to catch up with him over coffee another day, and I left my number on his LJ.
I was driving for my Chch hostess, and so decided I wouldn't be whipping back to his place for a quickie, instead suggested he text me (using the number from his LJ) the next afternoon for a "Booty-call" then we dropped him home at 3am (so I knew where he lived -mwahahaha).
The next day, hostess and I went out to lunch and upon our return I checked my emails and LJ, and checked the number I gave him, was correct - oopps! I put an extra digit in it. Reposted it, repremanded myself and resolved that it wasn't likely to happen at all. :(
then I started getting texts... not from him mind you, no, from old Dodgy Steve in Wellywood... asking if I wanted to have a 'session' - this used to mean weed, not with him though, while he would be my contact if I wanted some, he knows I don't smoke. then he sent me pics - one of a certain apendage (which i am way too much of a prude to spell out here) and then some pics of a motorbike (this probably had more of the affect he was after than the first one!) and a pic of a box of Viagara - he's not THAT old! but what ever!
Fortunatly, my Chch bloke, had then got my second message and started texting me, so I then ignored Steve and went calling. Good way to start the year :)
The following day as i was leaving Chch to head towards the big Wellywood the texts came again, first from my friend up here - with whom I occasionally engage, and then again from Steve. Luckily Driving gets me a thinking, and by the time I reached Kaikoura, I told Steve, thanks but no. I find the idea of these 'Sessions' a little scary, and this year's motto is "Control the Chaos"
By the time I was back home it was 3:30am and I unpacked, put washing on and went to bed!
the 3rd had me catching up with an engaging friend, :) watched DVDs tried to go to bed early and failed.
4th, picked up my sister from the airport, we did little all day which suited us both and i dropped her back at the airport yesterday at 4:30am, then went back home to bed. I managed to sort out a lot of stuff yesterday, some domestic chores, got my tooth tempoarily fixed, although it needs pulling and I need to get the cash for that. I have finished a couple of projects and today I will be doing more of that.
I need to explain more of this Controlling the Chaos and why... so I'll post it separate. cause i can.
Funny-ish story there too.
Couple of days before I left Welly, I left a message for the above bloke to text me, as I'd regard him a friend and wanted to know if he was attending this party or would I have to catch up with him over coffee another day, and I left my number on his LJ.
I was driving for my Chch hostess, and so decided I wouldn't be whipping back to his place for a quickie, instead suggested he text me (using the number from his LJ) the next afternoon for a "Booty-call" then we dropped him home at 3am (so I knew where he lived -mwahahaha).
The next day, hostess and I went out to lunch and upon our return I checked my emails and LJ, and checked the number I gave him, was correct - oopps! I put an extra digit in it. Reposted it, repremanded myself and resolved that it wasn't likely to happen at all. :(
then I started getting texts... not from him mind you, no, from old Dodgy Steve in Wellywood... asking if I wanted to have a 'session' - this used to mean weed, not with him though, while he would be my contact if I wanted some, he knows I don't smoke. then he sent me pics - one of a certain apendage (which i am way too much of a prude to spell out here) and then some pics of a motorbike (this probably had more of the affect he was after than the first one!) and a pic of a box of Viagara - he's not THAT old! but what ever!
Fortunatly, my Chch bloke, had then got my second message and started texting me, so I then ignored Steve and went calling. Good way to start the year :)
The following day as i was leaving Chch to head towards the big Wellywood the texts came again, first from my friend up here - with whom I occasionally engage, and then again from Steve. Luckily Driving gets me a thinking, and by the time I reached Kaikoura, I told Steve, thanks but no. I find the idea of these 'Sessions' a little scary, and this year's motto is "Control the Chaos"
By the time I was back home it was 3:30am and I unpacked, put washing on and went to bed!
the 3rd had me catching up with an engaging friend, :) watched DVDs tried to go to bed early and failed.
4th, picked up my sister from the airport, we did little all day which suited us both and i dropped her back at the airport yesterday at 4:30am, then went back home to bed. I managed to sort out a lot of stuff yesterday, some domestic chores, got my tooth tempoarily fixed, although it needs pulling and I need to get the cash for that. I have finished a couple of projects and today I will be doing more of that.
I need to explain more of this Controlling the Chaos and why... so I'll post it separate. cause i can.
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