so one of my goals this year is to be a bit selfish. Sounds crazy, but I have been told I have no selfish bone in my body... more than one person agreed with this and so I endeavour to find that bone, and either use it or choose not to.
This week I invited myself over to a friends house for fish n chips and while spending time with him, I realised how much I miss DR MCC. For many reasons. I sometimes wish that there were horrible things to remember, but there were no bad moments... for me. And so, today I text him & said that "this sucks more than I thought it would" he diplomatically replied "it's never easy".
Normally I would not have text him, but i thought it might be a little bit selfish to do so. As much as I miss him and his amazing head massages, if he suddenly called & said he made a horrible mistake and wants to be with me... I'm not sure I could. I know that things could not be the same & I would always be expecting him to break it off again.
So I need this week to eat some veges and get my head space in a more ok place... then attend his house warming next Sunday.
And I need to learn to be selfish.
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