Here I can be a little silly, a little gooey - so be prepared to see a side of me that you wont get o very often, in the hopes that if I spill my guts here, I can remain in some form of control in RL.
What I like about this Mac (& I can use "Mac" cause he is a "Mc" and that's pretty close):
- he has a circular saw and many other tools
- He has chest hair - a little like a YOUNG Magnum PI (sigh)
- He has an intelligent and inventive mind (I'm a knowledge whore)
- He can cook
- He's good in bed
- He doesn't cuddle and make me all sweaty
- He gives me space
- He gives good massages - including my head
- He dresses well
- He has a good job and ambitions for the future
- He wants to buy a house - this year
- He doesn't smoke
- He has friends who seem normal
All this goodness - part of me wants to end it all now, before I get too emotionally invested as it could never work out, i'm crap at relationships - fortunately this is a very small part that can be quashed reasonably easily.
i think the worst thing about him so far, is his name - the same as my father's. made telling Mum really awkward, nice that she said it wasn't his fault though :)
of course a large part of me is clinging to the fact we are "just seeing each other" at the moment - no commitment, although every saturday for the past several weeks we have made plans together & we will be getting together this Sat too. There is a party coming up in August which we have both been invited to, it may be our first event we attend as a "couple" uh oh... so scary!!
It's not really the commitment thing I fear, it's the fear of fucking it up, being labeled and having to live up to that label - what does being a couple mean? what are the rules or expectations??
freak out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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