Did i Ever claim to have rationality?

maybe i did, I often say I am a fairly logical person, organised yet also flighty. Rational though? I try to rationalise things - this way if i understand them, my theory is I can change them (if I wanted to)

yes, at times my ex just PISSES me off. I dont know how, or why and i dont actually care to think too hard about it.
This last week has been mostly ok. It now, however is becoming obvious he was on his best behaviour, which in my view is simply how people behave when they live in a flatting situation. And actually in some areas lacking in the 'guest' behaviour.

Good points - let start with the positive.

• He's doing the cooking
• looking after our daughter all day this week until school starts next tuesday
• Did get my washing in when it rained, and did put out washing the next day when sunny
• Food is healthy.
• He mowed half the lawn - the tough half after I did the easy half
  

Negative:

• I am doing all the dishes
• If he puts dishes away he puts them in the wrong place
• He ruined a plastic bowl trying to cook popcorn in it??!!
• He leaves the toilet door open
• He's starting to leave the toilet seat up - never used to be an issue, but when you are a guest in a girly house, you leave things as you find them!!
• Dodgy innuendos
• Tea is cooked later than I like - I'm going to have to talk to him about this one for when school is back.
• he doesn't offer to do anything,
  

and i already mentioned he pisses me off. mostly this is the conversational thing. Last night he's talking about relationships and how he would like to find a girl who isn't mental and doesn't have 'father issues'. I suggested that perhaps he look into why he attracted girls like that, and maybe the problems weren't all one sided. Then he said something about when we were together, and ended up asking what he did wrong then. I wasn't going there. I told him no, I wasn't going to tell him as it wouldn't change anything, fix anything and all he would do is make excuses.
I honestly don't think he has any idea of how much he hurt me, all the bull shit he put me through, all the bull shit lies - which it appears he still believes and hangs onto. The emotional manipulation is what hurt the most, and i was not in a place (with a new baby) to go anywhere, emotionally or physically. Even now, dealing with him I have to juggle my needs with what is best for our daughter, so although he might just look at the next few weeks, I look at how things will pan out over the next few months.

When i was with my last boyfriend, my ex told me he was a "loser" turns out he was right. Now, he asks me if I'll believe him next time. I said no. I'd listen to heaps of my other friends. he wanted to know why. I didn't have the right words but said it was something to do with him having a vested interest and me not trusting him. Not that i think he wants to get back with me, but more because of our daughter and any man that comes in to my life, is automatically in our girl's , and therefore in his. What i chose not to tell him, is that i dont think he is very smart and why would I trust a stupid person with my life?
I actually have many many reasons for not trusting his opinion of people and most of them come down to the fact that I feel like he fucked my life over once, I'm not letting him have direct control over doing it again.

He has learnt some stuff, and to a 7 year old he will seem pretty smart - he knows some facts about animals and world stuff etc - factual things, but really he's a dumb arse. Example? We talked one night about us having shared custody, (which is fine by me so long as expenses are actually shared) however, he wants to work in town, central Wellington, and therefore he wants to live near work. Seems very fair and reasonable, until you look at the cost of renting a 2 bedroom place in town. then factor in getting your kid to school - which is a 20minute drive north (on the motorway) and he has no car or licence, and if he did, renting space for your car in town will add probably another $50 a week to your rent.
And he will be looking for work in hospitality - nights. I'm not sure how much barmen earn, but I dont see shared care happening for a few years unless he wins lotto! But not my place to point any of this out to him.

Today I am going to the RHBs! ooo yeah!!!