tentatively I post here... ahhh screw it! if people read, they read.

I had a good weekend. Had some people over and there was drinking and conversation, some dancing, some singing and some guitar hero. I was impressed that most people participated in most happenings :)
While having a girly talk with a lovely girl - who i only got to meet due to her BF being my friend, I was asked about the concept of relationship with J. And a side from all the crap that he is going through, and while we are good friends and get on remarkably well... there is no spark. no Je ne sais quais. I think of him fondly, we banter, we joke, he is very companionable and thats it.

The Doctor on the other hand, is all "Je ne sais quais". so much i get completely confused, and nervous and weird. Not that i have grand dillusions of romantic feelings... it's more i dont know how/what i feel or even if I should. so I block. J keeps telling me it would be a good idea, but i think he is just trying to pawn me off!