before I begin an update on the previous: nope havn't heard from him.
Things I believe happen in incidents or 3's. Friday I broke my computer - seriously in a way that doesn't even make me feel satisfied... like if I threw it down stairs... nope, i was dumb, and downloaded software that made it work too hard and basically it has had a stroke. I'd do a system restore if I could get into any program... or if SOMEONE showed me how to do it with DOS (or if it is even possible).
Saturday (i was feeling sorry for myself - this is my first excuse and I'm sticking to it) I invited a friend over for a roast and drinks, then i just told him i was picking him up - as he too was feeling sorry for himself.
I fed him, and then we watched a DVD while he lay over my knee (it sounds dodgy if you use the word 'lap' and at this point nothing dodgy was going on) I stroked his forehead - which we both found relaxing. *He has a GF who is out of town for a while - NOTHING is allowed to go on.
Then we went to bed - in PJ type attire, there were however cuddles - no kissing... on lips, nor any touching of personal body parts - ok so there were 2 incidents of boob gropeage, but it stopped about as quickly as it started. although it felt like the most erotic extended foreplay of my life. Added to that the whispers of what we would be doing IF allowed.
I am left feeling like the most evil temptress of them all.
My justification: I had another friend tell me he wishes I would "find a nice single guy to look after me" on Saturday afternoon, Mother's Day weekend was the first weekend as a mother I spent single after my husband left me & I'm a scorpio; all this equals 'horny, messed up, lonely woman'.
according to him: I'm too attractive, he hasn't had sex for months nor will he get any for another 6 or so weeks, he's also a scorpio, nothing happened.
if nothing happened - why am i blogging - oh yeah, cause I REALLY wanted something to happen... FYI: you can't actually will people to kiss you.
How come I never hear about this sort of thing happening to others? only me?(No, this is not the first time i have been in this situation) Is it my fear of commitment striving forth to ensure that I will not end up 'happily ever after' by putting myself in situations that I cannot have. See the candy, smell the candy, touch some of the candy - but no eating! I'd only get fat anyway.
or is this justification after the fact?
If you could help me with my computer - I'd be ever so thankful!
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